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So... one of my cats was recently injured but he will probably be fine. However, separately, one of the stray cats I feed was badly injured and he probably won't make it. I would take him to the vet but he doesn't trust me enough to let me get near him, especially not now that he's injured. As far as I know there is nothing I can do, and I feel so helpless. I hate it when animals get hurt or die. It breaks my heart. I wish I could just fix every problem, with animals and with people. I know it's likely no one will read this, but I just wanted to say somewhere that from this experience and many others, I know what it's like to lose family members, including pets and human relatives. I know exactly how hard that is, but you have to remember that they wouldn't want you to be sad for the rest of your life. They would want you to, eventually, move on with your life. It may take you a while, but that's okay. You just can't give up because you know that's not what they would

So, when I was sixteen I got my GED and started going to college part time and continued to do so until I was eighteen when I started attending a different college full time. I'm twenty two now and I'm still going to the same college. I plan on graduating in the spring. However, I am having the same issue I have every semester with school. It's difficult to explain but basically I have a hard time motivating myself to get school work done. I want to get a degree but that's just not enough motivation for me. I usually don't have a hard time getting school work done until most of the way through the semester but this semester I have had trouble almost from the start. I think my bipolar depression may be contributing to my lack of motivation but I'm not sure as I don't really feel depressed per say but it could still be dysthymia which is a less severe version of depression. I desperately need to get a lot of school work done as soon as possible but it's just so hard to do.

So... I haven't posted anything on here in a really long time. The are a few reasons for that. One is that I am in college so I'm busy. Another is that I'm dealing with some mental health issues. I have still been doing some art and writing but I just haven't felt like submitting it. I just don't really see the point. I submit something and maybe I get a few people who add it to their favorites. It just doesn't feel worth it to me. However, if enough people respond to this journal saying that they want me to start posting again then I will consider it. Getting back to my mental health issues, the main thing I've been struggling with is my bipolar disorder. I have bipolar type two which means I deal with episodes of depression and hypomania (a less extreme version of mania). However, what I mainly struggle with is bipolar depression as on average the ratio of depression to hypomania in people with bipolar type two is 40 to 1. Dealing with depression means that I am